and by the inside?

Why do I want this to turn to the other side
If there is no such differences compared with that time?
I don't know, but I care enough for don't want to say good bye.

I wish I wouldn't have this kinds of thoughts
I know can't avoid,
I wish I could not hear that noise
Screaming by the inside:
You're not right and not enough.

I understand this feeling,
But I can't keep it secretly
And I know I'm not great,
Cause I like it sometimes.

But I imagine
How could it be good,
How could it make me feel alive
If everything was clarified,
And I didn't have this opened mind.

Suddenly, I am away
Around there, in the future
Following a certain line,
Stepping forward
And I don't know why
I've just forgot what was in the rear

But then, I am awake
And there's no one by my side
I hear that noise again
Oh my, I wish I could burn out.

Alone... empty... what comes next?
I can't decide, but I still dream with another part of future,
Two things... am I good enough to have both?
Well, that's a thing I've no conditions to answer now.
But at the very least, there's some hope by the inside.